Where i am!

So today is August 27th and here I am sitting in the dark wondering how far I've gotten since I blogged....lol...so sad isn't I lasted 2 blogs. What can I say? I seriously suck. Hmmmmmm good news I've managed to drop 5 pounds and keep it off so a baby step nontheless. Career wise I'm still stuck in a rut and know that the recession has been a major bitch on PMS (you figure what I said out). But I have found my faith again am am not going to give. Its hard most days especially when I wake up with chill considering my current financial perdiciment. But whats life without pain and sufferring....I know a pleasure to live, thats what. I'm at a lost, I did actually start my little path of change quite well and than all of a sudden i hit an all time low. I have so much I want to do and you would think with the time on my hands recently i would get it done, my problem i don't know where to start...(tips would b a great help). Good newss is that in the last 2 months I have read close to a 100 books,I swear I'm not even lying....yet the best part is none of them and i mean none of them were course related to my program....Damn. I just can't stop myself. I finally did one thing i'm proud of, I dumped my no goo cheating bastard of a fiance and moving on.......tell next time i need to mellow out!